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I had been an alcoholic for about 10 years when I surrendered the wreck that was my life to Jesus. My greatest fear was that I would go back into addiction. I had friends in Alcoholics Anonymous who would show up at meetings, drunk, teary, and desperate. I was so afraid that would be me.

 

The first six weeks I was a Christian were awesome. I devoured scripture. God made so many promises and now I had them all. I was so grateful! I even felt God presence  and heard His still, small voice several times. Wow!

 

Then the honeymoon was over. I realized, with a shock, that I still had a rage  boiling in me that would erupt quickly and often. I swore when angry. I was struggling with bad thoughts, and the truth was that I still wanted to get drunk. If I passed a Vodka billboard on the way to work, I would crave alcohol all morning.

 

I was born again, but not transformed. In desperation, I asked God if I could work for Him full time. I believed if I could just spend more time with Him, He would change me. I didn't' know how, but I just believed He would.  I grew desperate.

 

Weeks later my phone rang. "Is this Dave Milford, the lawyer?"

 

"Yes."

 

"How would you like to go to China to teach law and  business courses with a Christian organization?"

 

I was gobsmacked!! I didn't see that coming. But, after some prayer, I said, "Yes."

 

I went to China to share Jesus, but first, to find Him. Something deep inside me said if I could just be with Him, I would become like Him.  Later, I found God's promise: "as we gaze upon His glory we will changed to be like Him." 2 Corinthians 3:18.

 

At a small graduate school, isolated in the Northeast corner of Beijing, I was often alone and overwhelmed by the culture and language.  But there, I heard God's voice. I felt His presence. And His love began to heal my brokenness.

 

The 15 years I lived in Beijing, Tianjin, Guangzhou, and Hong Kong were difficult years, but the adventure of a lifetime. I loved it! Time and again church leaders promoted me, but each time I would crash into the limitations of my brokenness. And each time, God would pick me up and remove what had tripped me up. 

 

Upon returning to the US, I found a heart transformation coach, who for two years helped me to see the actual process God uses to transform us into a new person.

 

God has assignments for each of us. This podcast is one of mine.

 

 

The journey through transformation will be shared with you. I know there is much more to discover. I invite you to join me, and let's learn and grow together.